What will I do with my writing now?
Now that I have experienced what it is to write freely about myself and my life I will definetly reevaluate the way I write anything ever again. I intend on becoming an english teacher and I know that i will use my experience in this class as a part of my life as an educator. I dont know exactly how, but i do want to incorporate writing into the lives of as many people as i can. I hope that i can find time now to work on writing stories i am still trying to figure out such as my Carter story. I would definetly like to finish writing that piece and discover what it is i learned from the experience itself and the experience of writing about it. Other than that i cant quite say where my writing will take me or who my writing will effect if anyone at all, i just hope it eventually does both.
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Monday, April 23, 2007
Reflection again...
Reflection
The essay I had difficulty with, but felt satisfied the most with once finished was Driving with Dad. This essay was not easy for me to write because I admitted some things that I found hard to say or write. My relationship with my father is difficult and it is apparent in my story that we do not always see things the same way, but my opinions as well as sly remarks are kept to myself. The writing process for this story was as important as the trial period of the piece. After writing a few paragraphs I would read this story to my mother, for an insider’s opinion and to ensure that I am not being too dramatic with my description of my father. The other person I would read this to is my boyfriend. He has not been around my father at all, but he helped me with the amusing aspect to the story to keep my focus as important as my reader’s attention. With an insider and an outsider’s opinion I feel that I maintained a decent balance of pure truth and amusement throughout the story. Some of the decisions I had to make while writing this paper were whether to leave out certain opinions about my father in case he were ever to read this piece or to put them in because they are just as much a part of the story as the actual events taking place. I decided that my opinion is as important and included my comments where I felt necessary in the story.
Another problem I had after I finished the story was deciding what enough information was and what was too much. I omitted some paragraphs because I tried to explain what my point is without realizing that it is understood through the story itself and doesn’t need an explanation. After revising, the story was shortened in some areas and longer in others. I added the paragraph about my great grandmother’s funeral at the end of my revising to try and bring a point to my story. I wanted it to become clear that despite the situation family is there for you. As I wrote my opinions and comments throughout the story I realized that my father’s intentions throughout the entire ordeal were purely to help me and my intention was to make him out as the bad guy. At the time of the driving events I did not think that anything that my father was trying to teach me was for my own good. I never appreciated the fact that he pushed me so hard because if he hadn’t I would have given up on learning to drive a manual transmission. I began writing the story with the purpose of exposing my father as the harsh and demanding person I have always seen him as, but came out of the story with a realization that he is not trying to control all aspects of life, mostly he is just pushing me to do the best I can. I also never appreciated the time he took out of his day to ensure that I was practicing driving and to make sure I was doing it right. I also felt it was important to include details about my family life as subtly as I can so that I wouldn’t divert the point of the story too far, but I could give some insight that I am not the only one that has difficulty with my father. My brother and I are very close in age and we have gone through similar situations with our parents learning to cope with their children growing up. I feel that this story also takes a position on what it is like growing up with my parents. Our father does not do much of the moral support, but he will always back us up. My sarcastic tone throughout the story helps bring out the real me. I am very dry and my attitude toward everything is very similar to my attitude throughout the story. I am also not very ambitious, especially with learning to do new things. My story helped me realize that I was being immature with the way I handled learning to drive with my father, and I will never tell him that I have come to that realization. Much of this story has to do with my difficulty in admitting that I may have acted wrong, or I could have handled things differently. That is what makes this story hard for me to read to anyone that knows my family, myself included.
The whole story bases around the idea that I am moving from the backseat, being driven where ever it is that my parents are taking me, to learning to drive and getting myself there. The point is that I have taken on a new position as the driver of my own life and no one can steer me anywhere I don’t want to go. I changed through this event because it not only helped me acquire a new skill, but gave me insight on what it is to take on something challenging. The satisfaction of learning and mastering something is amazing and it is important that that stays relevant in my story as a major focus. I enjoyed what I learned so much that I went on to buy a new car that was stick which is actually humorous to me now that I have written my story. And, my father isn’t such a bad guy after all.
The essay I had difficulty with, but felt satisfied the most with once finished was Driving with Dad. This essay was not easy for me to write because I admitted some things that I found hard to say or write. My relationship with my father is difficult and it is apparent in my story that we do not always see things the same way, but my opinions as well as sly remarks are kept to myself. The writing process for this story was as important as the trial period of the piece. After writing a few paragraphs I would read this story to my mother, for an insider’s opinion and to ensure that I am not being too dramatic with my description of my father. The other person I would read this to is my boyfriend. He has not been around my father at all, but he helped me with the amusing aspect to the story to keep my focus as important as my reader’s attention. With an insider and an outsider’s opinion I feel that I maintained a decent balance of pure truth and amusement throughout the story. Some of the decisions I had to make while writing this paper were whether to leave out certain opinions about my father in case he were ever to read this piece or to put them in because they are just as much a part of the story as the actual events taking place. I decided that my opinion is as important and included my comments where I felt necessary in the story.
Another problem I had after I finished the story was deciding what enough information was and what was too much. I omitted some paragraphs because I tried to explain what my point is without realizing that it is understood through the story itself and doesn’t need an explanation. After revising, the story was shortened in some areas and longer in others. I added the paragraph about my great grandmother’s funeral at the end of my revising to try and bring a point to my story. I wanted it to become clear that despite the situation family is there for you. As I wrote my opinions and comments throughout the story I realized that my father’s intentions throughout the entire ordeal were purely to help me and my intention was to make him out as the bad guy. At the time of the driving events I did not think that anything that my father was trying to teach me was for my own good. I never appreciated the fact that he pushed me so hard because if he hadn’t I would have given up on learning to drive a manual transmission. I began writing the story with the purpose of exposing my father as the harsh and demanding person I have always seen him as, but came out of the story with a realization that he is not trying to control all aspects of life, mostly he is just pushing me to do the best I can. I also never appreciated the time he took out of his day to ensure that I was practicing driving and to make sure I was doing it right. I also felt it was important to include details about my family life as subtly as I can so that I wouldn’t divert the point of the story too far, but I could give some insight that I am not the only one that has difficulty with my father. My brother and I are very close in age and we have gone through similar situations with our parents learning to cope with their children growing up. I feel that this story also takes a position on what it is like growing up with my parents. Our father does not do much of the moral support, but he will always back us up. My sarcastic tone throughout the story helps bring out the real me. I am very dry and my attitude toward everything is very similar to my attitude throughout the story. I am also not very ambitious, especially with learning to do new things. My story helped me realize that I was being immature with the way I handled learning to drive with my father, and I will never tell him that I have come to that realization. Much of this story has to do with my difficulty in admitting that I may have acted wrong, or I could have handled things differently. That is what makes this story hard for me to read to anyone that knows my family, myself included.
The whole story bases around the idea that I am moving from the backseat, being driven where ever it is that my parents are taking me, to learning to drive and getting myself there. The point is that I have taken on a new position as the driver of my own life and no one can steer me anywhere I don’t want to go. I changed through this event because it not only helped me acquire a new skill, but gave me insight on what it is to take on something challenging. The satisfaction of learning and mastering something is amazing and it is important that that stays relevant in my story as a major focus. I enjoyed what I learned so much that I went on to buy a new car that was stick which is actually humorous to me now that I have written my story. And, my father isn’t such a bad guy after all.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
reflection
The essay I had difficulty with, but felt satisfied the most with once finished was Driving with Dad. This essay was not easy for me to write because I admitted some things that I found hard to say or write. My relationship with my father is difficult and it is apparent in my story that we do not always see things the same way, but my opinions as well as sly remarks are kept to myself.
The writing process for this story was as important as the trial period of the piece. After writing a few paragraphs I would read this story to my mother, for an insiders opinion and to ensure that I am not being too dramatic with my description of my father. The other person I would read this to is my boyfriend. He has not been around my father at all, but he helped me with the amusing aspect to the story to keep my focus as important as my readers attention. With an insider and an outsiders opinion I feel that I maintained a decent balance of pure truth and amusement throughout the story.
Some of the decisions I had to make while writing this paper were whether to leave out certain opinions about my father in case he were ever to read this piece or to put them in because they are just as much a part of the story as the actual events taking place. I decided that my opinion is as important and included my comments where I felt necessary in the story.
As I wrote my opinions and comments throughout the story I realized that my fathers intentions throughout the entire ordeal were purely to help me and my intention was to make him out as the bad guy. At the time of the driving events I did not think that anything that my father was trying to teach me was for my own good. I never appreciated the fact that he pushed me so hard because if he hadn’t I would have given up on learning to drive a manual transmission. I began writing the story with the purpose of exposing my father as the harsh and demanding person I have always seen him as, but came out of the story with a realization that he is not being controlling in all aspects of life, mostly he is just pushing me to do the best I can.
I also felt it was important to include details about my family life as subtly as I can so that I wouldn’t divert the point of the story too far, but I could give some insight that I am not the only one that has difficulty with my father. My brother and I are very close in age and we have gone through similar situations with our parents learning to cope with their children growing up. I feel that this story also takes a position on what it is like growing up with my parents. Our father does not do much of the moral support, but he will always back us up.
My sarcastic tone throughout the story helps bring out the real me. I am very dry and my attitude toward everything is very similar to my attitude throughout the story. I am also not very ambitious, especially with learning to do new things. My story helped me realize that I was being immature with the way I handled learning to drive with my father, and I will never tell him that I have come to that realization. Much of this story has to do with my difficulty in admitting that I may have acted wrong, or I could have handled things differently. That is what makes this story hard for me to read to anyone that knows my family, myself included.
The whole story bases around the idea that I am moving from the backseat, being driven where ever it is that my parents are taking me, to learning to drive and getting myself there. The point is that I have taken on a new position as the driver of my own life and no one can steer me anywhere I don’t want to go anymore. I changed through this event because it not only helped me acquire a new skill, but gave me insight on what it is to take on something challenging. The satisfaction of learning and mastering something is amazing and it is important that that stays relevant in my story as a major focus. I enjoyed what I learned so much that I went on to buy a new car that was stick which is actually humorous to me now that I have written my story.
The writing process for this story was as important as the trial period of the piece. After writing a few paragraphs I would read this story to my mother, for an insiders opinion and to ensure that I am not being too dramatic with my description of my father. The other person I would read this to is my boyfriend. He has not been around my father at all, but he helped me with the amusing aspect to the story to keep my focus as important as my readers attention. With an insider and an outsiders opinion I feel that I maintained a decent balance of pure truth and amusement throughout the story.
Some of the decisions I had to make while writing this paper were whether to leave out certain opinions about my father in case he were ever to read this piece or to put them in because they are just as much a part of the story as the actual events taking place. I decided that my opinion is as important and included my comments where I felt necessary in the story.
As I wrote my opinions and comments throughout the story I realized that my fathers intentions throughout the entire ordeal were purely to help me and my intention was to make him out as the bad guy. At the time of the driving events I did not think that anything that my father was trying to teach me was for my own good. I never appreciated the fact that he pushed me so hard because if he hadn’t I would have given up on learning to drive a manual transmission. I began writing the story with the purpose of exposing my father as the harsh and demanding person I have always seen him as, but came out of the story with a realization that he is not being controlling in all aspects of life, mostly he is just pushing me to do the best I can.
I also felt it was important to include details about my family life as subtly as I can so that I wouldn’t divert the point of the story too far, but I could give some insight that I am not the only one that has difficulty with my father. My brother and I are very close in age and we have gone through similar situations with our parents learning to cope with their children growing up. I feel that this story also takes a position on what it is like growing up with my parents. Our father does not do much of the moral support, but he will always back us up.
My sarcastic tone throughout the story helps bring out the real me. I am very dry and my attitude toward everything is very similar to my attitude throughout the story. I am also not very ambitious, especially with learning to do new things. My story helped me realize that I was being immature with the way I handled learning to drive with my father, and I will never tell him that I have come to that realization. Much of this story has to do with my difficulty in admitting that I may have acted wrong, or I could have handled things differently. That is what makes this story hard for me to read to anyone that knows my family, myself included.
The whole story bases around the idea that I am moving from the backseat, being driven where ever it is that my parents are taking me, to learning to drive and getting myself there. The point is that I have taken on a new position as the driver of my own life and no one can steer me anywhere I don’t want to go anymore. I changed through this event because it not only helped me acquire a new skill, but gave me insight on what it is to take on something challenging. The satisfaction of learning and mastering something is amazing and it is important that that stays relevant in my story as a major focus. I enjoyed what I learned so much that I went on to buy a new car that was stick which is actually humorous to me now that I have written my story.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
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The essay i will write my reflective piece on is Driving with Dad. I feel that this is the story i worked the most on and feel the closest to. I guess the general point is in the fact that writing this story i realized what my relationship with my father is like from a general honest point of view as in this is how it is/was/will be. There's no made up parts, its all the truth without trying to make anyone look like someone they are not. My point is honesty to myself and admitting things despite my lack of wanting to. I dont know what i will use for an organizing principle.
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
relationship/material
How did your relationship to your material affect your composing process? Describe / compare the composing processes you usedfor the revised essays.
The relationship I have to my material differs in each piece. My relationship to my Carter story is one that i am still exploring and trying to figure out what it all means to me and i dont think that i am ready to get deep enough into that at this point in my life that i would be able to create a workable piece of literature, mostly because i am far too confused about it myself to ever expect someone else to understand it. My relationship to my nature piece is also sort of confusing. I want to work on the piece because i do understand what i felt about being outside and what an experience it was for me to be on my own with my friends and nature, despite the main intention on their part being "lets party". My relationship to my driving piece is better than any other piece. I analyze my relationship with my father on a pretty much daily basis and by writing about an experience i wont soon forget i can look back and see how my relationship with him has progressed, unlike the other works their is no progression at this time that directy affects my life. My relationship with my father will affect me daily until i move out again or one of us dies, even then i will analyze every aspect of my relationship with my father because much like my experience with losing carter.. i dont fully understand it yet. But my relationship to the work about my father affected my composing process because i could see the here and now and the "what was then" parts. being able to compare today to back then helped me see what i was getting at while writing this piece and maintain an interest hopefully on a readers aspect.
The relationship I have to my material differs in each piece. My relationship to my Carter story is one that i am still exploring and trying to figure out what it all means to me and i dont think that i am ready to get deep enough into that at this point in my life that i would be able to create a workable piece of literature, mostly because i am far too confused about it myself to ever expect someone else to understand it. My relationship to my nature piece is also sort of confusing. I want to work on the piece because i do understand what i felt about being outside and what an experience it was for me to be on my own with my friends and nature, despite the main intention on their part being "lets party". My relationship to my driving piece is better than any other piece. I analyze my relationship with my father on a pretty much daily basis and by writing about an experience i wont soon forget i can look back and see how my relationship with him has progressed, unlike the other works their is no progression at this time that directy affects my life. My relationship with my father will affect me daily until i move out again or one of us dies, even then i will analyze every aspect of my relationship with my father because much like my experience with losing carter.. i dont fully understand it yet. But my relationship to the work about my father affected my composing process because i could see the here and now and the "what was then" parts. being able to compare today to back then helped me see what i was getting at while writing this piece and maintain an interest hopefully on a readers aspect.
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Composing an Essay
Composing Driving with Dad
Activities- Prewriting, rough drafts, writing and reading to my mother, getting input from my mother and an outsider for perspective on what an audience wants and what I’m getting at, writing, reading, writing more.
Focus: I chose my focus by considering what memories I would like to relive and which ones I wouldn’t. I know that I don’t want to write about something that will be dull to everyone else because there is no relation to the topic. I felt that with this story the topic was general, learning to drive parallel to my relationship with my father. I organized my essay by choosing how I would like to segment it, where I would like to start, think about what background information I would like to give and what could be left out. Once I figured out what was important to the story, I began writing. Also, as a part of composing a story, I like to read what I write to people that may have been a part or a bystander to the situation I am writing about. For this story, I reflected on how I came about buying the car and learning to drive with my father, but read to my mother as I went along to see her reaction as an audience and her input as a character that I hardly involved, but knew what happened throughout the situation. I did not use journal entries for this, I remember most of what happened very clearly without having to look back at written accounts of it. I discovered what I had to say as I went along. I realized once I started getting into dialogue that my tone was going to be dry and that my point was to sympathize with both my father and I at some point in the story. I realized that it wasn’t just me learning something, but that my father was learning how to teach something. This helped me get through the story without losing focus or being too dull.
Activities- Prewriting, rough drafts, writing and reading to my mother, getting input from my mother and an outsider for perspective on what an audience wants and what I’m getting at, writing, reading, writing more.
Focus: I chose my focus by considering what memories I would like to relive and which ones I wouldn’t. I know that I don’t want to write about something that will be dull to everyone else because there is no relation to the topic. I felt that with this story the topic was general, learning to drive parallel to my relationship with my father. I organized my essay by choosing how I would like to segment it, where I would like to start, think about what background information I would like to give and what could be left out. Once I figured out what was important to the story, I began writing. Also, as a part of composing a story, I like to read what I write to people that may have been a part or a bystander to the situation I am writing about. For this story, I reflected on how I came about buying the car and learning to drive with my father, but read to my mother as I went along to see her reaction as an audience and her input as a character that I hardly involved, but knew what happened throughout the situation. I did not use journal entries for this, I remember most of what happened very clearly without having to look back at written accounts of it. I discovered what I had to say as I went along. I realized once I started getting into dialogue that my tone was going to be dry and that my point was to sympathize with both my father and I at some point in the story. I realized that it wasn’t just me learning something, but that my father was learning how to teach something. This helped me get through the story without losing focus or being too dull.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Literary Journalism??
Some Kind of Commitment
Commitment to me is as serious as life or death. It is the permanence in commitment that frightens me. I fear the fact that I may change my mind and it is
too late to turn back. There are many serious challenges I have yet to face in my life and what I am about to discuss is not nearly as life altering as I may make it seem.
It is purely intrigue on my part that drives me to discuss it. It is the intrigue of the commitment to the art and the work that makes me eager to learn more.
It’s 10:30 on a Monday night, I pick Brian up and we drive to his mom’s house two towns away. We’ve been there plenty of times but now we’re going with
a distinct purpose other than just stopping in to say hello. We park and run into the house, out of the rain. His mom is watching TV in the living room, his brother,
Paul, runs down the stairs to see who just walked through the door. The dogs greet us and I pet one of them and playfully squish his face with the palms of my
hands. Paul is sent back to bed because it’s a school night. Nicole comes downstairs, we all walk into the kitchen. I thank her for delaying her outing to discuss her
job with me. Nicoleand I sit at the kitchen table and Brian stands to the side so he doesn’t blow smoke in our faces. I thank her yet again for giving me her time. Nicole is a 21-year-old apprentice at a tattoo shop. She has been apprenticing for Black Work Tattoo for about a year. She begins telling me about a job
opportunity that passed her by because she is a woman. Another local shop needed help but when she applied, they declined her on the basis that she did not have
enough experience and she is obviously a female. She tells me, “The guy I work for now found me on myspace. He saw my page and contacted me about an open
position he had at his shop. I checked it out and now I have been there for a year. I really like it. He is a great boss; working under him has been a great experience.
He is very patient and great mentor.” Tattooing is not just a hobby it is a lifestyle and commitment. In most states, a person is required by law to do apprentice work before they can be
considered a professional. The aspiring artist can choose whoever they would like to be their mentor and usually pays a fee to the mentor for the training they will
receive over the period of time it may take for them to become experienced enough to do it on their own. There is no limit as to how long it may take someone to
become a professional tattoo artist. This is definitely not an overnight certification. The dedication and hard work it takes to become a professional depends on the
individuals drive and passion. It also requires sacrifice of personal time and other interests. Nicole has been drawing for years. She tells me, “I really like to draw Sacred Hearts. The best piece I have drawn so far is a sacred heart with a guitar and
music staff. I don’t have anyone to tattoo it on yet, but I would really love to do it. I draw a lot of swallows, dice, flames and pin up girls. I am working on a big piece on
this woman’s back. Its wings, but she only has half done because she can’t afford to finish it yet.” Most people do not realize it but tattoos can be expensive. With
shows like Miami Ink on television, people have false ideas on what it is like to get a tattoo. Shows like this only display the happy customers coming in with an idea
of what they would like, coming back when the work is drawn up, sharing a happy story about the meaning behind the tattoo and leaving satisfied. They don’t
portray the time and effort it takes the artist to draw up something new, or the wait there might be from other customers arriving first. The price is never shown on
television and people are always happy. In reality this is not true. “Some people really think it’s a quick process. They don’t understand that it takes time and sometimes other people got there first. People come in on their
lunch breaks and try to rush us along. It’s a long process. If you rush it the results wont be the same. People also try and argue the price of the tattoo. What they
don’t understand is that if I did it for free, I wouldn’t be making any money! People always try and get you to lower the price but it’s hard, sometimes business is slow
and you don’t make very much at all. Other times there is good days and the customers are great.” The dedication on the artists side is intense. Nicole tells me about painting. She smiles and begins talking about how much she enjoys painting. The smile
fades, “I cant paint much anymore. I really don’t have time. When you’re not at the shop you’re drawing, when you’re not drawing your tattooing. I have to keep
working at it all the time. Even if I had the time to paint it would interfere with my ability to tattoo because they are two different styles. It was hard for me at first to
grasp the difference in tattooing. But, once I caught on I realized I couldn’t try and switch between the two, it would just set me back in my progress to becoming a
professional. " I could not imagine giving up so much free time and other passions like she has. The work is hard and the rewards are not always great. An artist may work
hard at a piece only to have to customer want to change things or argue about a price. Not everyone wants a custom drawn piece though. “Sometimes people just
come in and pick something off the wall. It’s not the same as doing one of my own drawings but it’s work and it pays.” The sexism in this country is prevalent everywhere but most people don’t realize how bad it truly is. When I think of discrimination in the workforce I think
of women being passed up for jobs because they are women. I also think about the company I work for and the fact that none of the stores have female managers.
There are plenty of female assistant managers, but none of them actually run the store, coincidence or discrimination? Most people do not think of how this sexism
carries over into every job, not just huge corporate or political ones. It is also common amongst jobs like Nicole's. Despite the fact that everyone in the shop shares a
passion for tattoos and piercing, there is still tension because she is a woman and the rest of the workers are men. People are quicker to judge Nicole’s ability to
draw or tattoo because she is a woman, not based on her ability or work. She tells me about the people that come in and ask her for one of the guys that are available and an employee that started their working relationship off
bady because she is the opposite sex. "When I got the job at Black Work, one of the guys tried hitting on me. I rejected him and he took it pretty bad. We don't get
along very well now and I'm pretty sure that has a lot to do with it." Nicole tells me. Besides that particular employee, Nicole doesn't have much of a problem with
anyone else. "I get along pretty well with everyone except that particular guy. They look at me like a little sister. They will joke around and mess with me all the time.
It's the customers that have a problem with me being a woman sometimes. Some guys will try and hit on me while I am tattooing them. Other people will ask for one
of the other employees when I try to take them as a prospective customer. They'll ask if anyone else is free because they can see the rest of them are guys. A few
people do feel more comfortable though. A lot of couples come in and the boyfriend or husband is more comfortable with me tattooing his girlfriend or wife. It's really
50/50." It's understandable that in this business people must feel confident in the person tattooing them. This is a permanent piece of artwork that someone will
take with them for the rest of their life. It is unfortunate that people generally only put their faith in the male population of the tattooing business. There are many
women in the tattooing business that are just as sucessfull and talented as the males they work with. But it is a biased point of view on the customers behalf and
television has not helped this at all. Going back to Miami Ink, there is only one woman shown working in the shop. This doesn't help change people's opinion on the
matter of women being tattoo artists. When media sets up shows like this they don't seem to be taking into consideration that people are affected by it. Reality
television is obviously not completely true and that is why there are credits at the end. But, people still think that the show is true to a large extent. But I doubt that
every shop only has one female artist. There are plenty of webisites that are dedicated to only female tattoo artists. I read about one convention held for only the
female's in the industry. I think it is important for people to understand that this bias is what keeps females second to males in our nation. When people can
understand that biased opinions dont help with progression in our nation then things will finally be able to change. The public should push for broader views on
subjects, reality television can help change this. When people start becoming interested in the unknown or ideas outside the norm people like Nicole will benefit from it.
For my eighteenths birthday I wanted to get a tattoo. I chickened out. Not because I was afraid of the pain, the needles or anything like that. But I was afraid of the commitment. I change my mind about things constantly and I knew that if I got a tattoo within a couple of minutes to a couple of months I would regret it and want something different, or nothing at all. This also happened to me when I turned sixteen and my parents finally said yes to a bellybutton ring. I backed out. Again, this was not because of fear of pain or needles, but for fear of commitment. I didn’t want to have the scar on my belly if I changed my mind about the piercing. I have still not gotten any tattoos; I would like one, maybe. But I know that until I see something that I can’t live without having I should stick to nothing at all. So I will stick with my ears pierced and my empty canvas until the day comes that I can make up my mind for sure. But I will appreciate the artwork other people take with them everyday that shows through their cloths on their bodies. I will respect the time and effort that someone put into that piece and know that behind that ink is practice, emotion and commitment.
Commitment to me is as serious as life or death. It is the permanence in commitment that frightens me. I fear the fact that I may change my mind and it is
too late to turn back. There are many serious challenges I have yet to face in my life and what I am about to discuss is not nearly as life altering as I may make it seem.
It is purely intrigue on my part that drives me to discuss it. It is the intrigue of the commitment to the art and the work that makes me eager to learn more.
It’s 10:30 on a Monday night, I pick Brian up and we drive to his mom’s house two towns away. We’ve been there plenty of times but now we’re going with
a distinct purpose other than just stopping in to say hello. We park and run into the house, out of the rain. His mom is watching TV in the living room, his brother,
Paul, runs down the stairs to see who just walked through the door. The dogs greet us and I pet one of them and playfully squish his face with the palms of my
hands. Paul is sent back to bed because it’s a school night. Nicole comes downstairs, we all walk into the kitchen. I thank her for delaying her outing to discuss her
job with me. Nicoleand I sit at the kitchen table and Brian stands to the side so he doesn’t blow smoke in our faces. I thank her yet again for giving me her time. Nicole is a 21-year-old apprentice at a tattoo shop. She has been apprenticing for Black Work Tattoo for about a year. She begins telling me about a job
opportunity that passed her by because she is a woman. Another local shop needed help but when she applied, they declined her on the basis that she did not have
enough experience and she is obviously a female. She tells me, “The guy I work for now found me on myspace. He saw my page and contacted me about an open
position he had at his shop. I checked it out and now I have been there for a year. I really like it. He is a great boss; working under him has been a great experience.
He is very patient and great mentor.” Tattooing is not just a hobby it is a lifestyle and commitment. In most states, a person is required by law to do apprentice work before they can be
considered a professional. The aspiring artist can choose whoever they would like to be their mentor and usually pays a fee to the mentor for the training they will
receive over the period of time it may take for them to become experienced enough to do it on their own. There is no limit as to how long it may take someone to
become a professional tattoo artist. This is definitely not an overnight certification. The dedication and hard work it takes to become a professional depends on the
individuals drive and passion. It also requires sacrifice of personal time and other interests. Nicole has been drawing for years. She tells me, “I really like to draw Sacred Hearts. The best piece I have drawn so far is a sacred heart with a guitar and
music staff. I don’t have anyone to tattoo it on yet, but I would really love to do it. I draw a lot of swallows, dice, flames and pin up girls. I am working on a big piece on
this woman’s back. Its wings, but she only has half done because she can’t afford to finish it yet.” Most people do not realize it but tattoos can be expensive. With
shows like Miami Ink on television, people have false ideas on what it is like to get a tattoo. Shows like this only display the happy customers coming in with an idea
of what they would like, coming back when the work is drawn up, sharing a happy story about the meaning behind the tattoo and leaving satisfied. They don’t
portray the time and effort it takes the artist to draw up something new, or the wait there might be from other customers arriving first. The price is never shown on
television and people are always happy. In reality this is not true. “Some people really think it’s a quick process. They don’t understand that it takes time and sometimes other people got there first. People come in on their
lunch breaks and try to rush us along. It’s a long process. If you rush it the results wont be the same. People also try and argue the price of the tattoo. What they
don’t understand is that if I did it for free, I wouldn’t be making any money! People always try and get you to lower the price but it’s hard, sometimes business is slow
and you don’t make very much at all. Other times there is good days and the customers are great.” The dedication on the artists side is intense. Nicole tells me about painting. She smiles and begins talking about how much she enjoys painting. The smile
fades, “I cant paint much anymore. I really don’t have time. When you’re not at the shop you’re drawing, when you’re not drawing your tattooing. I have to keep
working at it all the time. Even if I had the time to paint it would interfere with my ability to tattoo because they are two different styles. It was hard for me at first to
grasp the difference in tattooing. But, once I caught on I realized I couldn’t try and switch between the two, it would just set me back in my progress to becoming a
professional. " I could not imagine giving up so much free time and other passions like she has. The work is hard and the rewards are not always great. An artist may work
hard at a piece only to have to customer want to change things or argue about a price. Not everyone wants a custom drawn piece though. “Sometimes people just
come in and pick something off the wall. It’s not the same as doing one of my own drawings but it’s work and it pays.” The sexism in this country is prevalent everywhere but most people don’t realize how bad it truly is. When I think of discrimination in the workforce I think
of women being passed up for jobs because they are women. I also think about the company I work for and the fact that none of the stores have female managers.
There are plenty of female assistant managers, but none of them actually run the store, coincidence or discrimination? Most people do not think of how this sexism
carries over into every job, not just huge corporate or political ones. It is also common amongst jobs like Nicole's. Despite the fact that everyone in the shop shares a
passion for tattoos and piercing, there is still tension because she is a woman and the rest of the workers are men. People are quicker to judge Nicole’s ability to
draw or tattoo because she is a woman, not based on her ability or work. She tells me about the people that come in and ask her for one of the guys that are available and an employee that started their working relationship off
bady because she is the opposite sex. "When I got the job at Black Work, one of the guys tried hitting on me. I rejected him and he took it pretty bad. We don't get
along very well now and I'm pretty sure that has a lot to do with it." Nicole tells me. Besides that particular employee, Nicole doesn't have much of a problem with
anyone else. "I get along pretty well with everyone except that particular guy. They look at me like a little sister. They will joke around and mess with me all the time.
It's the customers that have a problem with me being a woman sometimes. Some guys will try and hit on me while I am tattooing them. Other people will ask for one
of the other employees when I try to take them as a prospective customer. They'll ask if anyone else is free because they can see the rest of them are guys. A few
people do feel more comfortable though. A lot of couples come in and the boyfriend or husband is more comfortable with me tattooing his girlfriend or wife. It's really
50/50." It's understandable that in this business people must feel confident in the person tattooing them. This is a permanent piece of artwork that someone will
take with them for the rest of their life. It is unfortunate that people generally only put their faith in the male population of the tattooing business. There are many
women in the tattooing business that are just as sucessfull and talented as the males they work with. But it is a biased point of view on the customers behalf and
television has not helped this at all. Going back to Miami Ink, there is only one woman shown working in the shop. This doesn't help change people's opinion on the
matter of women being tattoo artists. When media sets up shows like this they don't seem to be taking into consideration that people are affected by it. Reality
television is obviously not completely true and that is why there are credits at the end. But, people still think that the show is true to a large extent. But I doubt that
every shop only has one female artist. There are plenty of webisites that are dedicated to only female tattoo artists. I read about one convention held for only the
female's in the industry. I think it is important for people to understand that this bias is what keeps females second to males in our nation. When people can
understand that biased opinions dont help with progression in our nation then things will finally be able to change. The public should push for broader views on
subjects, reality television can help change this. When people start becoming interested in the unknown or ideas outside the norm people like Nicole will benefit from it.
For my eighteenths birthday I wanted to get a tattoo. I chickened out. Not because I was afraid of the pain, the needles or anything like that. But I was afraid of the commitment. I change my mind about things constantly and I knew that if I got a tattoo within a couple of minutes to a couple of months I would regret it and want something different, or nothing at all. This also happened to me when I turned sixteen and my parents finally said yes to a bellybutton ring. I backed out. Again, this was not because of fear of pain or needles, but for fear of commitment. I didn’t want to have the scar on my belly if I changed my mind about the piercing. I have still not gotten any tattoos; I would like one, maybe. But I know that until I see something that I can’t live without having I should stick to nothing at all. So I will stick with my ears pierced and my empty canvas until the day comes that I can make up my mind for sure. But I will appreciate the artwork other people take with them everyday that shows through their cloths on their bodies. I will respect the time and effort that someone put into that piece and know that behind that ink is practice, emotion and commitment.
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